Wednesday, April 11, 2007//
cadenza vii. 7 yrs ago, i think i was a much happier person than i am now.. at least that's what i think
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:32 AM
Friday, March 30, 2007//
i guess i don't get to feel human often. just as i thought i's starting to feel more human.. i have a feeling i'd be as good as a walking dead tmr.. how glad am i not to have to teach tmr morning.. but that'd mean my sun aft is gone. at any rate.. i neeed slp.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
1:01 PM
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i guess when things suck they just have to suck to the core.
it started with my insomnia again.. been almost 3 hrs since i've tried to fall aslp.
and then suddenly my lab gpmate msged me 'i think you've attached the wrong lab report'.
and so i took a look.. and realised i've bloody saved the wrong file. i saved a past yr report instead of my own. and when i checked thru the folder.. my rxn was a plain omfg!?!
guess this year has been one with more downs than ups. right from january.. been having more unpleasant experiences more than pleasant ones. just last friday i had a totally shitty one which everything just went wrong from the minute i stepped outta house.
i need a geomancer.
i think i'm cursed lol.
and i should be glad i came home in one piece.. nearly rammed into the car in front of me just now.. what with windscreens and rear window fogged like shit till i couldn't see anyth except lights only if they're bright.
ok but look on the bright side.. i'm glad i've got nice people around. as in really. i've got a lab partner who offered to help with my part of the report upon hearing the idiotic thing that happened. i'm not gonna ask him to do it for me.. but the fact that he asked is comforting enought.
and sometimes i realise, when favours come unasked.. it's kinda hard to decide whether or not to return the favour. personally i don't like to take things without doing anything in return.. but somehow i figured.. if i do so.. there's a chance i'd do more damage than good. i've done that a lil too often.. that in the process of helping or being friendly, the side effect was just at certain point of time both parties just sustain some damage.
ah well.. thinking a lot these days. thanks to sleepless nights.. think i should just go on to my lab report.. the thought of having to do it a second time.. makes me wanna cry.. which i just did..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
11:40 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007//
i figured listening to recordings can change my mood. entirely.
and i figured i usually have an inertia to begin touching a piece i've done again.. don't talk about the easier pieces.. but pieces with reasonable difficulty. For fear of not being able to play up to my expectations.. to what i'd thought was myself at the peak. it's so easy to expect. yet so hard to live up to expectations..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:04 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2007//
it's been 3 yrs! since the broadcast of mona chew's 'live from paris'!
mercure hotel.. i remember the room and the setting.
Round and round the mulberry bush,
the monkey chased the weasel.
The monkey thought twos all in fun.
Pop! Goes the weasel.
damn hilarious! one night i'd never forget, laughing till my sides hurt.. rolling around on the toilet floor cos we figured it's not nice to laugh so hard at our teacher.. man.. i miss those days.
i miss rjcsb'04.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
9:30 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007//
and so i was bored.. and i decided to listen to beetho's sonata op111.
that changed my night.. absolutely beautiful.. and i generally prefer pieces in minor keys.
think after being with ginastera the past months.. some tonality is always welcomed. easier on the ears.. and the 2nd mvt's so expressive.. i'm kinda yearning for those kinda pieces now.. emo ones. ah well.. maybe one day.. i'll learn it. maybe one day..
so many things i wanna learn.
right now feel fortunate to have 2 teachers who care. there's one who'd without fail wish me luck before concerts, and one who'd always ask how it went.
kinda wish it's not ginastera i'm playing tmr.. i have more in me which i feel like expressing. not really in a whacking mood..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:52 AM
