Wednesday, October 29, 2003//
there's nothing right about me and nothing left in me. today just sucks. and my tolerance is going down. blah. looks like im a piece of jigsaw lying around out of the puzzle.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
2:37 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2003//
ah feeling a bit better from yesterday. somehow the piano helped. a lot. somehow when you're playing, you can let out the emotions in you that have been bottled in there for ages. things that you very much wanna say, yet cannot. it's weird. when it comes to talking rot i seem to have no problem. even to strangers. but when it comes to things -the not so rotty ones.. the real ones- can't really say them out.. don't know why. even to close ones. bah. maybe i'm losing the ability to communicate.. sigh. but it felt really good last night. at least when i was playing. but after i got off.. ah well. it's when things come back again..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
1:48 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2003//
[i am i. and i wish i wasn't]
have you ever wished you're not yourself? pretty lost today. first during band prac. and then halfway during our mini og outing, when i was walking around in tower records in suntec. was at this section with classical music cds.. and just felt like crying after listening. not because the piece was touching or anything.. classical/baroque music seldom has the moving effect.. but cos of how it reminded me of how far behind i am. -ah yea thanks shishi christine wenxu sher-bert etc for that jigsaw puzzle. happen to like hamsters here.. v nice- yeap and then we were playing bridge at the sky garden. ah bridge again. the game for all occasions. when yu have a minimum of 4 people and nothing to do. yeap. christine and shishi left and so the 4 of us were just bridging. came back quite early. and then practised. came back from dinner and practised again. chased off from the piano cos my bro wanted to watch the tv. and so i'm displaced. to the pc. and my uncle called. haven't seen/heard from him for ages. and asked me what i was doing. told him my combi.. and then said i have no intention of doing engineering. and then he asked why the hell did i take these subs. actually till now i don't know. maybe it's been a mistake right from the start. but seems like i can't do anything about it now. someone run my life for me. i'm sick of thinking. -or have i even been in control of it in the first place?-
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:25 AM
Friday, October 24, 2003//
back from east coast park and stuff.. and uploaded the pics into the photo album
to all the 1c people who came today: thanks lots. yu all were great. though it was a small bunch today, we had fun =) really grateful people are still willing to come even though they know the number prob gonna be quite small.
anyway yea was at bishan stoning.. till gary came. company at last. then shuyang and gerald came and we made our way to ecp =) gupta and hannah supposed to meet at bedok.. but then gupta got called back my her mom when she was at bukit batok.. so hannah had to come alone. then she sorta couldn't find her way from bedok and went off. quite poor thing. after coming a long way. but thanks for the effort anyway =) yeap. we bridged and stuff. frm macs.. till we got chased off and went to the void deck of block 27 near ecp. yeah rocks. then song wee came. after finishing pw. and yeap. finally xin wei. =) we rented our bikes.. the place had 1 hour free for every hr rented. cool. and gary and his short/childish looking bike. v cool. reminds me of my walking spree wif swe during the band chalet. the weather was merciful today i must say.
yeap. v nice. 2 hrs of biking!! cant even remember when was the last time i biked. yep. then we went back to macs.. songwee left soon cos he couldnt lock his bike up. then shuyang left cos she had to meet her friend. it was then left with gerald xin wei gary and me playing bridge again. heh =) yeap. finally left at arnd 6. then it made me realise.. any outing is possible as long as yu're arnd wif some fun pple.. plus a deck of cards. rocks we should have more outings.. and get more pple to turn up as well. the more the merrier =)
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:57 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2003//
ah can't shift the tagboard up. the only thing i could do to make it look normal is to lenghten the text area. at least now the tagboard doesn't look like it's lying around out of place. but now the blog doesn't fit into 1 page =(
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
4:37 PM
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happy deepavali everyone. blah been too busy to blog the past few days. open house yesterday. quite boring. plus messy as well. ah forget it. didn't exactly feel good the whole of yesterday. in the morning it was fatigue from the day before.. plus some negative feelings from somewhere else. aching body and stuff. and as the day goes on it only gets worse. maybe the only good thing that happened was that i went to slp damn early. ah to hell with all those stuff. 1c gonna have outing today! not exactly a large bunch we're expecting. but who cares.. as long as we have fun. yay. east coast =)
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
4:18 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2003//
new blog is up. apart from the tag board being kinda outta place. but at least a new look. been staring at the black blog since i could remember. at least this looks brighter now. time for a change. and the me to you bear reminds me of the one i have on my pencil case. just that the one here looks a bit skinnier.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:46 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2003//
awake now. alison ginny xh the pigs still sleeping away. yeap and it was hilarious last night.. cos ginny called and asked me to meet her at the khatib station. yeap. and then went over to a playground. and alison and xh was there too. and so up they came with a choc fudge cake... that kind frm cold storage that is super creamy.. lol. and i was so innocent last night.. alison complained that she was hungry but there was no knife. and so i was just staring at the cake wondering whether or not to use my hands and boo! i found myself drowning in fudge. bah. totally all over my face. gross. and we started chasing and throwing at one another around the playground at 10+ pm and kids prob thought we were nuts. took quite some time at khatib macs to clear up myself a bit. and then yeap they came and stayed over. bridged at night. lol. cant think when was the last time i bridged. and then i got tired. have piano lesson afterwards
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
4:38 PM
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and that's not all. continue tmr
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:39 AM
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thanks everyone for your wishes. one year older.. but doesn't seem any different. woke up slightly before 6.. i don't know why. just couldn't sleep anymore. so was just bumming around online.. just to realise there were only 2 people on my msn.. and they're on away mode. looks like there was no one to entertain me. then when it was finally late enough i started playing the piano. the scores i got yesterday. quite nice =) and i like peer gynt suite.. nice. and ahh.. i displayed the first signs of aging. bathed and came out of the toilet, then tried to put on contacts.. after some time i realised my vision was still blurred. and it took me like 5 mins to realise that it wasn't my pair of contacts i was wearing. it was my bro's. ahhh. and went to city hall.. heh. then the esplanade.. and more scores =) and sakae sushi.. yum.. lol. and then home. and packing my bro's room for him. heh. he's still ungrateful. and then dinner wif mom and bro. thai food. rocks. and now i'm home again =)
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:22 AM
Friday, October 17, 2003//
ah finally free enough to post something here.. after the massive minesweeping and chatting. ahh looks like i can go be a sweeper next time. not a mine sweeper.. road sweeper. lol. yeap promos officially over. ok actually the chinese ppr felt like it happened yesterday. was pouring like mad after chinese ppr and so was stuck in sch for a while. and finally went out of sch wif the chinese klas pple. they went off in diff directions, so i stayed around at esplanade while looking out for scores. not bad. got quite a few today. plus i miss the place. then i went to the rooftop.. pple there with company and stuff.. but i realised i wasnt that lonely.. somehow the good mood helped a lot. was sleepy.. but was kinda on a high as well. and then livia was finally done wif her bio ppr. so went to taka.. and happened to see mandy and mel there too =) thank goodness. or else i would just have fallen aslp walking at taka. yeap. shopped arnd for glen's prezzie. and got things done.. yay. finally things are over. this feels good.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:57 AM
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:04 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2003//
October
Which month are you?
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haha looks like i have too much time to spare. anyway didn't actually get this at my first try. got january instead. but not bad. got it at the second try. after looking at the various descriptions =)
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
2:26 AM
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promos ended. more or less. chinese tmr. at least it's not so stressful now.
haven't been blogging for the past wk or so. nothing happening.. except for studying.. and oh it's quite interesting how i made a new friend. on monday i was doing math at woodlands library. then this sec 4 indian gal -whom i don't know- came up to me with an a math qn. after finding it familiar, i looked at the top of the pg to realise that it was o-lvl nov 2002 ppr. yesterday i was there again. and i saw her again -at the toilet- and see said hi and asked how i was.. then we had this mini-conversation. and i concluded she had a v strong interpersonal-relation-skill. lol.
the weather's so hot now. and i finally got to touch my piano. after 1 wk?
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
2:14 AM
Friday, October 10, 2003//
Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a
good communicator. Incredibably loving and
loyal when your trust is gained and you are
fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is
in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river
but nobody truly knows you.
What's your element
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rather bored out. think i shall take a little break out of studying. had gp yesterday, but somehow the exam mood hasn't set in for me. i don't know why, sitting there, the paper in front of me. and yet i feel as if i'm just doing another piece of essay and compre in my life. this is bad. i need to get psyched up. then did some work with xh and wanyu at woodlands lib after that. at least it was more productive than what i'm doing now. would be looking forward to next friday. thinking of doing so many things after promos. ah. i should be patient. but since this week passed so quickly, i don't see how long the next week would feel.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:03 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003//
wasnt feeling too good just now.. couldn't really fall asleep last night.. something in my mind. then was thinking abt it in the afternoon. things are not the same anymore i guess. but ah well. came online.. played 2 rounds of minesweeper.. and feels much better. things change. people change. change is the only constant
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:11 AM
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haha actually i won
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:49 AM
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playing minesweeper on msn wif yuan xiang now.. and i'm losing.. boo
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:39 AM
Saturday, October 04, 2003//
things just have to happen don't they? it's one of the rare saturdays -well not that rare these days since there's no more band pracs- and so i happily took time off to practise on the piano. haven't had enough time to play.. so was trying to make up for the lack of practice. but half the time something at the back of my mind was telling me to get off and get down to mugging. but well i ignored it.. but ah sigh. i realised my metronomme has died. the past few times i used it i thought it was just me unable to keep to the timing.. but today i realised it was the metronomme which did not keep the timing. the piece of metal obviously wasn't oscillating with a constant period. ah that aside. but that's not the whole point. the main thing is that the metronomme has been with me since i was 4. when i started learning the piano. 13 yrs!! ah sigh. i didn't really cherish it a lot. found it a chore to have to use a metronomme... restricts your playing and stuff. but now it's dead, i just realised how much of help it had brought me. and after using for so long i have feelings for it. it's not so much a problem of getting a new metronomme whatsoever. it's about losing something i did not really see the significant of, and yet had been part of me. brought it with me all the way frm indo when i moved over.. it can be said to be one of the oldest things i possess -apart from my beginner piano books- other than that i don't think i have in my posession longer than that metronomme. even my piano is only 9 yrs old. how i wish it can come back to life
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:16 AM
