Monday, May 31, 2004//
ah holidays. long awaited. but somehow don't feel the pressure release. although everytime i look at my schedule.. all i have there are empty boxes with the dates on. have a feeling i'm gonna waste this hols away. darn.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:54 AM
Saturday, May 29, 2004//
hmm. a bit more stuff these days. met up wif an exklasmate of mine n went for vj concert last night. think we talked more in that one evening than all those added together in our yrs in p sch. yeap. feels gd catchin up with people. band prac today. n then off to home to practise. worked out with my bro in the evening then was with him in the games room at night. so cold my bones hurt. darn i'm getting old. ah well. tired. stupid headache. hols. emptiness
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:52 AM
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You are Woodstock!
Which Peanuts Character are You?
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heeZ in love wif woodstock.. that cute yellow thing -grins-
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:52 AM
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You are Schroeder!
Which Peanuts Character are You?
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8:50 AM
Friday, May 21, 2004//
yu think yu know me? think again
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:53 AM
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to hell with the world
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:42 AM
Thursday, May 20, 2004//
ah yay quite happy. just came back. and my teacher decided to give me two of her students to teach. yay.. income =)anyway. yep. met up with 4 today.. his birthday. went to cine.. then decided to watch troy.. but the time slot at 510 only had the front row left.. so took the 540 one instead. and then meanwhile we slacked at long john silver. yep. can't believe it.. my first movie this yr. how unhappening have i been? anyway.. comforting to know it's his first movie this yr too larh. someone as -no-life- as me.. haha. yep. after that we saw joel.. heeZ. kinda recognized him but wasnt very sure.. after not having seen each other since p6.. haha. had dinner at yoshi.. and yea. ali n xh just popped behind me.. -so scary man- haha. yep. was kinda tired so just went off after dinner larh. heeZ. a bit on a high now.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:31 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004//
fear. words can strengthen. and they can weaken at the same time. demoralised
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:07 AM
Saturday, May 15, 2004//
quite a happening day. haven't felt this happening for v long. amir's birthday. slacked arnd at home and at the piano the morning. then finally left house for city hall. and when i was nearing khatib i realised i forgot my tickets -drats- and so i went back to get it. yep reached there at 11 plus.. but amir was still having his project team meeting. so it was just gabriel and i. eunice was nowhere to be seen.. haha. stoning at hmv.. was at the classical music section. and was thinking that if they were to take any longer i would have listened to gregorian chants. heeZ. and yep finally done. and then it was pastamania at ps for lunch. heeZ. the 4 poochis.. joseph ng and a bunch of j1s frm the 2 project teams (",) haha. and after all the pasta amir had a wonderful facial session with the cake.. not exactly creamy.. but good enough. yep. and then it was bert at the esplanade library. supposed to be studying physics.. but nothing much went in.. and that place was freaking cold. ah then there was some kinda performance going on.. little kids -students- from kawai music sch.. heeZ. and there's this v cute little boy.. who played the violin.. grr. he's damn cute. and it's not often that i find little kids cute in the first place. yep. then in the evening he went off.. to buy a bday present for his bro.. how sweet.. if only my bro is half as nice. yep. then had dinner.. kenny rogers. and then back to esplanade for a concert. the roof. memories. cos the last time i looked down from the side facing marina mandarin hotels etc.. walked by the place. that place. somehow different parts of the esplanade and it's vicinity just brings back different kinds of memories. representative of different eras.. different people. everything just comes back. thinking back on happy times just makes me miss them more. the shore -one windy afternoon-.. the funny structure -christmas eve-.. merlion facing the whole cluster of hotels -favourite hangout-.. singapore river -i remember looking at the clock tower of vch.. it was 16 apr last yr- cavanagh bridge -xh n i during a tempo 3 yrs ago.. and another time last yr in march- ya. just too many things. if there's a place i wanna visit right before i die.. that might be a place i'll consider. ah well. the two pieces of durian just rock.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:38 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004//
sigh. i shouldn't have done math. i shouldn't have come online. sick emotions. to hell with them. darn. thursday tmr. not exactly something i'm looking forward to. somehow things have just lost meaning. i feel like crying
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:47 AM
Monday, May 10, 2004//
sigh. this sucks.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:16 AM
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ah ya finally blogging after a few days. yep been quite a slack weekend. ora yesterday. as usual didn't do anything much. rj proclaimed hol today. feels good. haven't had a sch-proclaimed one day hol since rg days. ya. just stayed at home and bored myself. to the extent i decided to iron clothes for my mom then changed my blog template. now the stupid links are not working. darn html. i'm a nutcase at those stuff. a lot of time to myself today. maybe too much. stoning online waiting for people to talk to me. didn't really have the mood to do work. the inertia is too great to overcome. despite the upcoming chem lect test tmr. disgusting. don't know what i'm feeling now. just weird. someone/something distract me pls.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
2:18 AM
Friday, May 07, 2004//
stupid blogger/angelfire. my background is gone
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6:40 AM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004//
some mistakes, yu can't afford to make them. and for every mistake made, there is a price to pay. now it's payback time for me. i don't know. just very mixed. and i wonder why. sick of myself. and my reactions which i can't control and which i fail to understand. i have no one to blame. only myself
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:28 AM
Sunday, May 02, 2004//
bored dead at home. sick. supposed to go for tp concert last night.. but wasn't feeling too good. quite bad actually. so ended up getting tix frm bert n went home before it started. yep kinda got a fever frm throat infection.. so reached home and covered myself with 2 layers of blanket.. only to wake up in a pool of sweat.. heh. went to the doc today. n just popped 6 pills down. damn i feel like a drug addict. grr. somehow the feeling of staying at home when yu're sick is different from that if yu stay at home when ponning sch. grr. nothing to do. bored.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:55 PM
Saturday, May 01, 2004//
much as we fear changes.. change seems to be the only constant.
and i wish i never knew. cos the truth just hurts. maybe i've been living in memories. but that's the only thing that remains. sigh.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
9:10 PM
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when logic and reasoning fails.. heeZ. just euphoric now. without rhyme and reason. maybe it's just the feeling that there's nothing pressing at hand for me to settle. quite relaxed. how i wish life could stay this way.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:47 AM
