The tranquility of the ocean...

Tuesday, December 21, 2004//

it's a blessing in disguise =)

--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
3:30 PM

Monday, December 20, 2004//

i'm back. and suddenly feel very empty. the house.. so quiet. just feels different here and back there in indo. but guess it's the people. not the place. and yes there's this particular feeling i've got. the same one i felt 3 yrs ago. and now i dunno why it keeps coming back to me. k at least now it's outta sight. and soon it'll be outta mind.
this trip back. not as fruitful as what i wanted. several experiences tho..
1. took up driving. and realised how corrupt those pple were. blatantly askin for tips and asking for bonuses. crap. driving in indo is damn tiring. jams in 50% of the time.. starting and braking etc.. on a manually controlled car. bad traffic.. with no proper lanes and stupid motorbikes going everywhere and pple walking all over the place. it's darn irritating to have someone honking at yu every now and then. but ah well.. gd place to practise tho.
2. met up with relatives whom i haven't seen for years. feels good to be back.. the feeling of one big family.
3. attended 2 weddings. received guest for my cousin's wedding.. sit outside and smile at pple haha. and give out souvenirs.
4. almost robbed on 1812. at arnd 1812 hrs. how fateful. was at the photocopying shop collecting my theory stuff. then felt someone tugging at my handbag and i thought it was my bro. then i fell cos that idiot yanked my bag too hard. and it was only then i realised i was being robbed. thank gdness the shopkeeper screamed and pple came in. and that idiot fled.. on a motorbike driven by an accomplice. two more people was behind trying to slow the chasers. crap. ya apparently i was tailed right from my cousin's place cos 2 men came once i got outta the car. stupid and i din notice. darn. ended up with bruises and scratches. and an ugly hand.. red with the marks and stuff. bleagh. ah well i should be thankful that he was unarmed and at least he din manage to take anyth frm me. lousy inexperienced robber. he oughta learn a bit more from his momma.. cant even rob a gal properly.. he was pulling the bag strap downwards and pressing on my shoulder instead of grabbing it sideways. how dumb. and choose to attack in broad daylight. robbers nowadays need to attend some lessons man. k pisses me off when i think abt it again.
my regrets on this trip:
1. din do enough of shopping and stuff. a lot of time wasted stoning and stuff.. din get to walk arnd and stuff
2. no ticket for the flight back. would have liked to stay a while longer as the later days are a little bit more pleasant.
3. not having kicked the robber at where i should have kicked before he got away. bleagh.
don't know. just feel weird now. maybe i'll get used to it again in a while. sigh. the year is coming to an end. my mind is a whirlpool now. forget this i'll blog again tmr or sth

--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:10 AM

Friday, December 10, 2004//

it's been nearly a mth since i last blogged. it was still A levels then. and soon enough it was over. the days after A's, busy with tuition and piano and rushing my theory stuff. and then everything just passed so quickly. days zoomed by. wanted to grab on to a moment but realise that i can't. i'm now at the airport using the internet service, typing out this blog. in 10 mins i would be boarding. back to indo. something i would usually look forward to. somehow today something's different. i don't know. i miss my cousins and friends. this time is a rare chance i'd see them since it's a wedding and people would be coming back from all over.. yep maybe i should concentrate on enjoying this trip. my old friends.. not a lot. my teacher.. relatives. would be back on 20th. and then i would be looking forward to xmas. have never looked forward to it any more than i do this yr. but at least now there's a reason too. would miss yu all in sg. take care everyone and enjoy your hols. see ya all when i'm back.

--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:10 PM