Tuesday, February 28, 2006//
ha lol stupid insomnia.. let's hope i'll be able to slp after a round of math =p
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
9:58 AM
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ke garisan.. sedia.. *gunshot*
deja vu.
and yep saw that lil boy on the pram i saw exactly a wk ago at arnd the same time on the same part of the train.
yet another deja vu. that boy (and possibly his grandma) got off at khatib again.
a ride on the emocoaster..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:06 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2006//
gosh. i haven't touched work today and yet i feel as if i've been doing math for 5 hrs. sigh. feeling heavy. what have i been doing all these while? causing problems.. and more problems.
maybe some issues are better left untouched.
and sometimes i wish people can read my mind. that'll save me frm having to talk.
argh. sick and tired of my existence.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
3:53 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006//
mm.. not another sleepless night i hope.
so many things to think about..
really hope things'd turn out fine..
not just for me..
for pple arnd me as well.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:43 AM
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mm amazing how euphoria can be so short lived.
i was happy.. was relieved. at least i didn't disappoint my teacher. =p
yep.. but ah well.. now as thoughts settle once again...
so many things still need to be done..
not looking forward to masterclass tmr.. and not touch either.
lol actually feel like swimming now.. bloob bloob would be all i'm hearing.. and 1.. 2...3.....20.. would be all that's in my mind.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:44 AM
Thursday, February 23, 2006//
bloob bloob once again. the first 5 laps was crap cos i's swimming wif my neighbour (a gal 10 yrs younger than me) and the remaining 15 was alright. and i've got a lap-counter for that too. =p
but ah well.. enough to make me think.. and finally figure out why i enjoy interaction with kids.
innocence. yep they are just so simple, and it's when i'm with them i actually feel relaxed. not having to read into hidden meanings, everything is just so straightforward.
yep she's askin me to teach her piano just now haha.. and i's playing wif her dog too.
feels easy talking to her. ah well.. kids are just so easily amused.
and in the pool, after my laps, i found myself doing things i haven't done in a long while.
catching. wow when's the last time i played that? ah well maybe occasionally i still do but not in the literal sense.
squirting water at each other.. haha. i remember doing that to my bro when we're really small haha.
playing arnd in the baby pool.. gosh i haven't been in there for years. but ah heck i find myself back there today.
christine's age -= 10
gotta match hers to be doing all those la. but ah well..
heh. i know i'm changing. dun recall myself ever liking kids. my bro can testify for that.. but ever since i started teaching chara.. guess she changed the way i feel towards them.
something so pure, so simple.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
4:05 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006//
Van der Waals forces increase with increasing molecular size and with decreasing distance between the molecules.
and yet yu know when molecules come too close there's bound to be interelectronic repulsion.
la guess the most brainless thing i've done today is swimming.. actually spent my time in the pool listening to the bloob-bloob sound of the water.. staring at blue tiles.. and then counting the number of strokes i take from one end to the other. 24 on the average.
mm looks like the only way i can somewhat tolerate my playing is when the practice pedal is down.
bleagh. the endorphin's wearing off..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:40 AM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006//
man.. i cant believe i've taken a 180-degree turn towards the way i look at this. wow.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
4:35 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006//
thoughts once again. took me 3 hrs to fall aslp last night. ha been surviving on arnd 4 hrs of slp for the past 3 or 4 days. mm. was practising this morning.. beetho's eroica variations. and everytime i reach the last variation the fugue.. somehow i'd think that the countermelody is actually more interesting than the theme itself. do i then just bring out the countermelody, and let the theme fade into the background? i cant. the theme is what brings uniformity to the piece, and by disregarding its presence, i'd be doing sth that doesnt make musical sense.
but again, do all things have to make sense?
thinking.
how much can your rational thinking affect how you feel?
rational thinking can only govern my actions, and make me do what's 'right'.
but it cant change the way i feel. i cant make myself feel another way no matter how much i try to reason.
anw enough of that. had enough thinking the whole day.
let's see.. a summary on what's been happening.. just to keep track of dates.
1feb06 - met up with the poochis for dinner.. nydc followed by kino and then coffee club.
4feb06 - met up wif amir n gab to do eunice's present.. ps foodcourt..
11feb06 - a whole day of teaching. and then went to watch fun with dick and jane at ps. dinner at pizza hut.
13feb06 - met up wif jac n jinxun before meeting gab and jialing at tiong bahru. headed towards changi airport. forgot to get off at tanah merah and then we had to take the train back. dinner at sakae.. jinxun jac yeeshen amir and gab. and then livia came along. and then peiyan n songwee came later. yep. sent eunice off. one less poochi in the club. was with amir on 858. deja vu. we were there on 20 sep last yr too. more or less the same seats. wow. been sth like 5 mths. felt like yesterday. yep.
14feb06 - that's just yesterday. somehow it felt like it's been damn long. ah well. a thoughtful night. which lasts till today.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
10:13 PM
