Friday, April 28, 2006//
today i know how good it feels to receive a hug when i's feeling really trashy..
was at rj's jazz concert.. and bumped into leeying and liching..
lovely jnrs really nice to see them again..
that lifted me for a while at least..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:42 AM
Thursday, April 27, 2006//
it's as if i'm chasing my own shadow..
asking for the impossible..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:12 AM
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i suddenly find myself longing for sth i thought i'd not be able to stand..
yet i know i'll never be able to get it..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:42 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006//
26th apr.. a date with many many happenings..
heh was reading the pprs in the morning..
today 20 yrs ago was the day the chernobyl nuclear disaster happened in russia...
memories of pw.. haha right rod?
then as for 26 apr 99, 26 apr 03, 26 apr 04.. they are still dates i remember.. heh.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:07 AM
Saturday, April 22, 2006//
experience is a good teacher.
tells yu when things are on the wrong tracks
but that's if yu acknowledge it.. and know that if something doesn't work, try sth else instead of repeating it over and over again..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:54 AM
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mm.. interesting day..
i conclude the collie loves me.. heh =) damn nice one he is.. darn that's another thing up my 'list of stuff to kidnap'..
chara commented my skirt's like the new 2 dollar notes.. true enough it's polymer.. just wifout yusof ishak's face.. yep and she's one that's up that list of mine..
missing a north bound train was a blessing in disguise.. got to know this fellow teacher in the school.. first time i've talked to him tho i've been seeing him arnd every sat since i dunno when.. perked me up for that little while at least.
open wound + water isn't exactly the best combination.. but it kinda gives some kicks haha
my mom's really super damn nice. conclude she loves me too...
one single observation can evoke 2 different responses.. but i'll say my bro's one really sharp one..
and yep he's getting nicer these days too
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:40 AM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006//
judge a man by his intentions not his actions. lala interesting thought.. easier said than done.
and i realise i think a lot when i practise haha.. not just abt the piano..
maybe i shld do that more often.. after exams that is.. but for now..
cs.. cm.. cn..
why do all the disgusting modules start with c?
mm.. and bleagh unfortunately my name starts with c too lol.
cs1101e - christine studies.. the study of an unstudiable mind haha =)
lala.. almost 3 wks into april.. fast.
and i conclude studying makes yu slpy.. i don't recall feeling slpy before 10.. until i started studying for exams.. darn.
and perpetually hungry too!
guess studying really turns one into a /pig.
#include
int main(void)
{
species /xt;
if(/xt == studying)
{
/xt = /pig;
printf("Oh no christine has turned into a pig. \n");
}
return 0;
}
ha think programming has got the better of me
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
7:58 AM
Saturday, April 15, 2006//
things i've learnt:
1. pain releases endorphine, therefore pain makes yu happy
2. along the lower arm, different parts of the arm have different sensitivities
heh come fight to drive me nuts and the champion shall walk away with my sanity =)
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:21 PM
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chara's mom's really nice.. got a piece of her bday cake today heh apparently she had a party before her lesson today. she's made my day.. which went on fine till the night.
had a fight with a wall. strange the wall didn't fight back, yet i's the one who attained the damage.
ah well.. a few broken vessels enough to give me the kicks =p
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
9:04 AM
Thursday, April 13, 2006//
chara's birthday today..
8th birthday. what was i doing on my 8th birthday? i can hardly recall..
msged her mom to ask her to help me wish chara a happy birthday.. man i love her..
and bleagh how i envy her.. i really do.
she once told me she wanna hurry grow up.. actually i's thinking nah. i'd rather remain a kid when your range of emotions is still limited to the few simpler ones. when problems never bog yu down for more than 10 minutes.. when people around yu are so innocent too (wow i'm sounding like kok siong 'no more pure and innocent like yu were in sem1').. yea but the idea is there. no need to read into actions..
yep she's prob gonna have a smashing time with her family today ha looks like she'll have a lot to tell me this coming sat =) would give anyth to be in her position now.. but heh she's gotta grow up one day too..
and i see myself in her every time i teach her..
she's as obsessed with counting as i am.. during one of her lessons a few wks ago she was trying to count the number of 'B's that occur in a piece.. sounds like what i did not too long ago.. counting the number of notes in the RH part of a chopin etude.
damn i really like her a lot.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
1:52 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006//
i know it's care and concern, but done excessively it can be used to drive someone up that wall.
really.. proven and tested.
i don't know how long this is gonna last but if this goes on any longer i swear i'm just gonna lose my sanity.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
2:16 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006//
excess thoughts. let's hope i'd be able to leave them all here before i go to slp.
tired.
somehow, suddenly, i miss S14A.
i miss the times we spent figuring fmath qns.
feeling stupid was a collective feeling..
but it all feels different now. too different.
maybe a lil too different for my liking.
i miss yu guys.
and to hell with uni
detachment as a form of integration..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
8:21 AM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006//
i conclude blog surfing is bad for health. and that includes blog surfing your own archives.. gets you thinking and then you have no mood for work.. bleagh..
feel like taking a stroll now.. too bad bro's busy..
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:12 AM
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why do snails like to come onto the pavements when they've got nice bushes to stay in?
been sending snails back to the bushes lately.. kinda sick to see them get stepped on.
heh every time i see a snail on the pavement i'd be thinking 'i wonder how long it'd be able to stay there before it's crushed under someone's foot'. ah well. sucks especially when it rains almost every afternoon nowadays.. so many of them on the pavement.. my way home usually consist of me making the snails go back to their shells and then kickin them back into the bushes.
anyway, there were 2 dead lil birdies outside my bro's room.. at the corner where the aircon was.. kinda gross with all the lice all around. and the birds were dried up. sick.
my tolerance for dead stuff are going down by the day. a squashed earthworm on the ground or a squashed lizard at the doorframe is enough to make me feel.. mm.. uneasy(?). can't really find a word to put there.. at any rate, just not a pleasant feeling.
packed my table again.. came across lots of things. letters.. some stuff should just be gingerly stored away. you'll know you have them, but holding on to them is just gonna prevent you from moving forward.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:31 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006//
040406..
and i still remember what i did on 040404.. was i trying hard to hit 4:44 pm? nothing much, but i remember. actually i wonder if yu do.. heh.
i wonder if i am getting retarded these days. maybe i am -shudders-
today i walked into a chem tut class.. thinking it was my class.. when apparently it wasn't. it was the class before mine. so i went in.. took a seat.. and the whole class was staring at me as if i's a martian. and the tutor prob was wondering why this person came for tutorial 58 mins late. it was only then that this person i know from that class told me that their class had yet to end.
how totally embarrassing. sigh.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
5:14 AM
Sunday, April 02, 2006//
march is over.. here comes april. fast.
finally a more relaxed wkend.. catching up with my massive lag..
the power of a smile. realised that when i's teaching yesterday. she's finally smiling. no more stoned face. wow that took me a yr.. maybe she'll be more responsive next time..
and yea it's very heartening to see chara put effort into her playin cos she likes the piece.. didn't expect to much from her..
a dip.. was actually euphoric just now. more like satisfied cos i had time to do 2 chem tuts 1 lab report and practise today.. but somehow it's gone now. bleagh.
maybe it's blog surfing.. when yu realise how out of touch yu are with some people..
yep guess i am easily affected by things i read.. they get me thinking heh.
bleagh. the need to find income during the hols.. think my fees are gonna be upped. darn. need to work.. need income.. more income.. grr. but before that.. a mth more to go.. heh.
--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
1:58 AM
